Category Archives: Spirit

#1 of 10Q: Significant Experience

This year, like last year, I will answer the 10 questions, one a day for each day between Rosh Hashanah and Yom Kippur, provided by the 10Q project/space.

The first question: Describe a significant experience that has happened in the past year. How did it affect you? Are you grateful? Relieved? Resentful? Inspired?

And my answer: My second daughter was born 4 days ago. This means that the whole of 2014 was in anticipation of her birth. It affected me on multiple level, From the daily routine — as in I spent more time with our first duaghter prepping her for school and picking her up –, through financing — as in trying to save up some money so I wouldn’t have to work that hard when the second one is born, to the self-reflective — as in my responsibilities grew, I have to be more of an adult in that regard and have to work even smarter to create a better future not just for myself, but for my children too.

I am grateful. We were blessed with a beautiful, healthy child, born under ideal circumstances, into a nurturing home in a safe part of the world. I am also relieved. We’ve been trying to get pregnant for a while and the fruit of our love is nothing less than exhilarating. We don’t have to try again. (She is our last planned child.) Resentment never came into the picture.  I sometimes think about how my life would be different without a second child. But no matter what answer I feel any moment I always know that it would be less rich. As far as inspiration goes she bring different kind of humor out of me, than the first child, who is now six. I joke with both, but differently. It may be a low level inspiration, but I enjoy it every day.

Spirit: Week 4

I’ve been going to a life coach for almost a year. This week I “graduated.” Depending on how you look at it it could mean:

  •  I accomplished what I set out for at the beginning 
  • The problems I had when I started to work with him are solved
  • I am care free and set for life.

None of this is true, but

  • I gained a lot of internal tools and ideas on how to keep my life in balance
  • I learned the value of being introspective and allow myself the time regularly to be it
  • I have been working on identifying my values and how to make a life that is in harmony with them
  • I shifted my focus from being worried about money troubles all the time to accept that worrying won’t make any difference about them (if the troubles exist)
  • I not just let more joy in my life, but explicitly work on recognizing that I do have plenty of fun.

A couple of months ago we switched form weekly calls to biweekly calls with the life coach and this week I suggested that I do not even need the regular calls. He agreed, so we did a kind of exit interview and compared my status from how it was when we started. Much better and positive.

BTW: These weekly posts about fun, body and spirit is one way to keep myself in check. As long  as I keep doing them I know that I am focusing on myself at least enough time to write these self-reflective messages.

So, thank you James for the all help, I’ve got it from here.

This post is part of the series answering how I did this week with my new year resolution of having more fun, working on my body, and being more spiritual?

Body and Spirit: Week 3

Despite my best intention I managed to get to the gym only three times again this week. Monday and Tuesday I did my regular workout of half an hour cardio and an 50 minute or so other exercise after that. Wednesday I gave the cardio camp another try. It felt wrong again on my knees and lower legs. Next week will be the last chance for me to get comfortable with it: I bought new workout shoes. If they work out and soften enough the impact on jumping around on my knee I will stick to the class. If they don’t than in this case will not follow that advice of no pain no gain. I am feeling the wrong kind of pain here I think.

There were two deaths this week that shook my spiritual world. On one hand an elderly woman passed away I knew from an online community for 14 years. She was described by other members of the community as

  • having lived well
  • being fiercly libreal, 
  • having a strong, caring, funny soul
  • whose presence inspires
  • having strong sens of what was right and wrong

I wans’t particularly close to her, but know that almost always agreed with her and found her attention to other members valuable. I will miss her passionate voice.

The other death is even less personal: I read a lot about the background of Aaron Swartz and his suicide. These two passing made me stop and wonder whether I am living the life that

  • I want to
  • is worth living
  • would be remembered in such positive terms as my online friend’s was.

As usual there are no answers, just pondering what if anything should I change to get better answers to the questions above.

This post is part of the series answering how I did this week with my new year resolution of having more fun, working on my body, and being more spiritual?